hi.
how are you?
let’s talk about something I have been struggling with… routine.
You know I love my schedule:
3:50a: Alarm. Gratitude Practice + Puppy snuggles
4:00a: Coffee. Daily Stoic. Red Light.
4:15a: Social Media (I use my phone in the morning. Sue me.)
4:30a: Get Ready
4:50a: leave for a workout
5:30- 6:30a: sweat
7-8a: get ready
9a: work
If anything, I’m consistent. I live a whole ass self-care life before my day even really starts. Do I have to wake up at 4 am? No. I could definitely sleep until 7 or honestly even 8 am. Roll out of bed and head to The Studio but then I would have to fit in my gratitude // workout // social media time into my workday and to me that’s counterproductive. When I get to work, it’s time to work.
It’s week four and I’m finally settling into our new (temporary) normal. Without trying to sound like a totally uneducated // unempathetic swine…I loved the first two weeks.
Listen, I have had blinders on for six months working like a psycho from 4 am-10 pm seven days a week. You guys, I didn’t even know Morgan Stewart and Brendan from Rich Kids split and they announced It in AUGUST. She has a whole ass new man… who by the way is Dr. Phil’s son. (Thanks to the 78 DMs I got updating me). Also… he is super hot and a musician, not personally my type but like GOOD for her. Truly I would give up Dream Water to see zesty ass Morgan and Dr. Phil interact. Ps Morgan is a gift from Jesus.
I also learned Blake Lively had a third baby… NEWS. TO. ME.
Anyway.
So the first two weeks, while I was still working my tail off, I was able to exhale. Lots of bike rides, family dinners, and reading. The weather was a dream. I was sleeping in until 6ish, spending my morning watching videos on SkillShare learning new tricks and tips. She was productive yet comfortable. Honestly living that work // life balance thing I thought was an old wives tale.
Then week three hit.
I hit a slum. I missed my clients, my friends, my studio. I didn’t want to learn anymore. The weather was damp and sad… I was going to make a joke about an old man’s balls here but I’m a lady and going to keep it to myself.
All I wanted to do was teach. I worked so hard…nonstop and in SECRET from all the people I lean on the most and I couldn’t even play in the space I worked tirelessly for. Now I already know you are thinking, “Katie, just teach a zoom class!!!!!!!”
Okay here is the thing. I don’t love a virtual class. I will totally do It, but It’s awkward. No one is really there. It’s just me out of breath trying to perform exercises, tell jokes and look somewhat attractive… you’d be surprised at how many dudes show up to see a blonde do some jump squats… maybe you’re not surprised. I digress. Anyway, I want to look good on camera and truthfully when I’m working out I’m not cute. It’s vain. It’s shallow. It’s me telling you the hard truth.
Also, a side note… the only place I can film in my current living situation is in my family gym. I’m not going to lie, It’s a sick setup. Therefore, filming in the space during a literal global crisis makes me look like a dingleberry. People are literally DYING and I’m going on Instagram live with a ring light an a full rack of dumbbells, custom mirrors and surround sound speakers. Me, a socially tone-deaf dingleberry. To be perfectly clear, the gym is NOT mine and I contributed nothing. I do not have nice things, my parents do and they allow me to borrow them. There is no silver spoon here… my mom used to take away our participation medals. I recorded a podcast about It.
Back to routines.
Normalcy. I needed It. I am naturally lazy. If I don’t have a project or a plan my productivity goes to shit. I will lay in bed for days watching trashy television. When I say days, I mean days. Which is what I did last week. Zoom calls, client check-ins, and meals in bed. I worked out but to check the box, not with purpose and intention…there is a difference. Time didn’t matter because I could sleep whenever I didn’t have clients. My room was tragic. Morale was low.
Truthfully, I think It was a combination of the pandemic, missing my schedule and crashing from the mayhem that was the last year of my life. I finally had the time to sit with myself and sometimes that’s super uncomfortable. I am not one to shy away from personal development…it’s one of my favorite natural highs. Emotions stir up when you have time to be still. It’s a good thing. I had to work through them…I journal and take long drives. I talk to myself on those long drives… It helps.
This week I got my shit together.
I set my 3:50 am alarm. I ‘scheduled’ my workouts. I am going through my morning as if I have a studio with a full day of classes and clients to attend to. I have a few private clients I am still working with via phone call, FaceTime and Zoom. I plan my cooking, reading and relaxation time around them.
During times where I would normally have clients, I am working on new formats and studying for my NASM exam. I am drafting blog posts and working on my SEO. I am on SkillShare learning.
I am learning to create productivity and giving myself grace when I need the space to just mindlessly watch Tiktok. Balance in the chaos.
The Big Tip: stick to your normal routine as much as possible…especially sleep. Move your body often. Walk. Jumping Jacks. Stretch. Learn something new. YouTube University is a thing. I love SkillShare. Read a dang book. Sit in silence and breathe.
I hope you’re hanging in and have found a blessing in this pause. I miss you endlessly.
Make good choices. Look both ways.
I love you the most.
xoxo,
Katie